Spring time

Not too much from the usual has been going on as of late. I've been getting things done and worked on fairly on time and haven't missed any classes. I've forgotten some things and put off others but all in all I'm doing fairly well... I haven't gotten any updates as far as getting my papers in since I'd have to call during a break that isn't lunch, which those breaks don't really exist for me... But whatever. Allergies are my main concern right now since they made me sleep from 10:15 PM yesterday till 2:00PM today... So my overall day is cut more than in half since I typically wake up at 8 AM.

I was hoping to sew myself a 1930's dress to wear for a scene but since I slept for so long I just went to goodwill and bought a cheap dress that was a similar shape. Oh well we live and learn I suppose...

My spending has been a little wonky since I kept eating out for lunches and dinners but now I've gotten some food that I can easily cook and PB&J so I can have a lazy lunch.

Why my drafting class will be the death of my GPA

Last night I finished my drafting project at 10:30 which I figured was a great time to finish, get home, and go to bed. I woke up this morning and saw my petrified piece of wood on my desk and remembered that I have a friggin geology test which I forgot because I would like to get a B in drafting which is my minimum grade for most of my classes, if that is even possible to get seeing as most of the drafting class hasn't gotten anything higher than a C on their projects. I feel so sick to my stomach that I wasn't able to remember my geology test! I had it written own too!

• Drafting takes precedence over other classes and work to the professor
• No Clear Instructions
• Grading system is based on his mood and if your drawing looks pretty
• No realistic timeline(maybe in the real world)
• Lab is the only place to work on it which is only open 8AM-5PM and only two people have a key and only one is in our class. 
• Late late nights are spent in the lab by others who simply copy other's work who finished it first. 
• Copy cats tend to get better grades than the ones who free handed it. 

I've also been falling behind in Acting class because of drafting. It's all my scene partner can focus on right now since his grandmother has been so sick and died over the weekend so we have had absolutely no time to go over our script and practice. 

I want to cry right now My GPA is slipping so bad right now since so few of my classes are actually applicable to my major right now. 

Predicted results(With optimism)

Geology- B

Character Study- C

Drafting- C

Lighting Design- B

Adv. Costume Construction- A

Special Studies- A

With that Result I might  be able to get a 3.0 when I typically get a 3.5 which is between a B+ and A- GPA and 3.0 is a solid B which would bring my over all down. 

Predicted results(Without optimism)

Geology- C

Character Study- D

Drafting- D

Lighting Design- C

Adv. Costume Construction- A <---Already know my grade

Special Studies- A <--Already know my grade

With those results I'd have a... 2.47. I think I would start sobbing at that point... I haven't had that low of a GPA since I was in Middle School...

Quick update

It has been a while since I updated and I am sorry for that I have been crazy busy these last few weeks. I had spring break, a conference, and then had to catch up on homework. So it has been crazy.

Update on psychiatrist stuff: I called back over spring break to make an appointment with one of the higher rated psychiatrist offices. Well they were closed. I called again this week(I was in Fort Worth last week) and they said they would call me back. Three days later I haven't gotten a call... I am a bit angry about it. So I got a new list from my therapist/coach on friday and I will call them on Monday I am so tired of this spinning around. I also found out on Friday that the old office I was requesting documents from (submitted the paper work 2 months ago) didn't receive it! UGH! I'm so frustrated with this...

My therapist keeps pushing me towards meds now because there is literally only so much that I can do with coping mechanisms but my mind is always out of whack so I can't even slow down my brain enough to do them now. Things that used to work don't any more like keeping a planner. I want to try the meds to see if they help but the last time I took medication it made me feel awful and pass out. At the time I was using Concerta so I know I shouldn't take that. If anything similar or any major mood changes happen I will continue to not take medications.

Someone help me. T_T

Spring break

Last week was spring break... Probably the best worst week I've had. Of course I had stuff that I needed to do and I also chose to work but most of the time it was very apparent that I just wanted to laze around all week. It kind of makes me feel awful because I got so little done when I had a good doable list that I wanted to finish but... it didn't happen. It's kind of sad to be honest but I can't change that now. I have school today and tomorrow then I go off to USITT, the apartment inspectors are coming sometime this week and my room is a mess, I haven't finished one of my illustrations for USITT that should have been done ages ago, and I have a vest and tunic that I want to do some hand embroidery on but I only got the tunic sewn together. The good print shop was closed last week too so I couldn't push myself to get the illustration(which is really a simple colouring at this point)finished by wednesday. I hate being so disappointed with myself but thats the way that it goes really...

I tried getting an appointment with a psychiatrist but their office was closed for spring break. I'm so annoyed that it isn't funny at all. It's like life doesn't want me to get help and makes me just want to stick with therapy/coaching but my therapist said that she would recommend medications for me. Still waiting on that paperwork too... So who knows when that will actually get here it's been 40 days now and they legally have 60 days max to get it to us.

Photo credit: Myself

Post Production

So the show is closed now and I am exhausted still. Last night I participated in Arts! Arts! Arts! and it was lots of fun. It was so exciting I got to listen to Betty Buckley practice while I set up the mannequins for the gala. We got boxed dinners after we got everyone dressed but missed cocktail hour which I was a touch sad about. That morning I had forgotten that I was helping with that so I was completely un prepared yesterday and I had to miss class so that I could get my homework finished that was due this morning. I had to finish working on it later that day too which got finished but not until 2:30 AM then I took a shower and went to bed. Either my alarm or my body decided that I didn't need to wake up at 6:30 and I ended up waking up to my 7:30 alarm that tells me I need to leave for class. I was so frustrated and swiftly got up and ready and got there on time. I did forget my rough draft for one of the drawings which was a  bit frustrating but I was tired and flustered so I let it slide.

My midterms  were last week which I thought I did pretty well in I think. I did get at C on my geology test which I'm glad for. It was a bit harder than the last one but it was fine and I'm fine with the grade that I got on the exam.

I have my appointment on Friday which I'm a bit nervous about since I've been everywhere on the scale lately.. I also have been having a lot of issues with impulsive buying which is difficult for me to manage but I'm hoping I can get that managed again even if that means I have to start carrying cash again. Part of the issue is that I love eating out especially when I am super busy since most of the foods that are good for me to eat take preparation.

Oh! My best friend did come this weekend and it was so much fun we had a blast and I got to show her a small snippet of where I live which was super fun and she got to see my show.

This is us. :D 

~Elizabeth S.

What a week

So it was midterms this week and I've had to get a bunch of stuff done this week since it was also dress rehearsal and opening week. The show opened fine and everything I got my midterms over with lines memorized and all that fun stuff. I still have lots to do though...

Today was interesting. I did my scene and did really well went to the shop and got invited to go out for lunch but I'd have to skip a class that I don't get credit for and isn't actually 'required', so I skipped it... I am way too impulsive... Hopefully I can get that under control cause it's really hard on my bank account... No one said anything about me not going to the class so I don't think it was a huge deal... 

When I went to my actual class we were given a fun assignment of making bum pads for the next show. I know how to make them. ish. so I went full force since we had to get them done by 4:30 but that didn't happen and I was even the fastest at it... I really don't know why they put crazy expectations on us like that sometimes... It's not like it was just a 1 hour project. Plus they started us 30 minutes late and gave us our last piece to cut out and sew 30-40 minutes before 4:30... It really wasn't a fair deal but I hope that I don't get counted off for that... Oh well.. I can finish it another day even if I have to come in early or something. 

In fun news though my best friend is coming to town tomorrow. She has ADHD too so life is going to be interesting this weekend! :D WHOOP! 

Here is a picture of one of my designs. Thank you Mandy Richards for the Photo. 

Set Design by Jon Young, Lighting Design by Kirk Fitzgerald 

Oh yeah and still waiting for the call... I have an appointment next week though so maybe I'll find out more info next week?

~Elizabeth

The show will go on

So after two snow days canceling first and second dress for Alcina and a cold kicking my butt with, coughing(my poor roomates), fever, and over all weakness, first/third dress went wonderfully. There are a few issues that we have to discuss with props and some makeup notes but overall it's going really well. Everyone loves the costumes and I think they are looking really well. I have this weird feeling like I didn't design them but not in the way that the show isn't true to my design because it is. It's just this odd detached feeling that I get sometimes about things since I'm used to being a fine artist and really I see the show as being a whole piece instead of just 'oh theres MY costumes' I'm looking at everything the costume, set, lights, everything.

Dealing with all of these pressures of being a designer is really hard on me emotionally and mentally just trying to process it and constantly feeling like I'm making people unhappy especially since I've been given several nasty looks just yesterday from people and it really gets to you especially when they are short with you or say things in front of others that makes you look like an awful person.


Oh well though I suppose... The show goes up tomorrow night and my hands are basically off besides going to the reception and going to see it with friends and family.