Spring time

Not too much from the usual has been going on as of late. I've been getting things done and worked on fairly on time and haven't missed any classes. I've forgotten some things and put off others but all in all I'm doing fairly well... I haven't gotten any updates as far as getting my papers in since I'd have to call during a break that isn't lunch, which those breaks don't really exist for me... But whatever. Allergies are my main concern right now since they made me sleep from 10:15 PM yesterday till 2:00PM today... So my overall day is cut more than in half since I typically wake up at 8 AM.

I was hoping to sew myself a 1930's dress to wear for a scene but since I slept for so long I just went to goodwill and bought a cheap dress that was a similar shape. Oh well we live and learn I suppose...

My spending has been a little wonky since I kept eating out for lunches and dinners but now I've gotten some food that I can easily cook and PB&J so I can have a lazy lunch.

Why my drafting class will be the death of my GPA

Last night I finished my drafting project at 10:30 which I figured was a great time to finish, get home, and go to bed. I woke up this morning and saw my petrified piece of wood on my desk and remembered that I have a friggin geology test which I forgot because I would like to get a B in drafting which is my minimum grade for most of my classes, if that is even possible to get seeing as most of the drafting class hasn't gotten anything higher than a C on their projects. I feel so sick to my stomach that I wasn't able to remember my geology test! I had it written own too!

• Drafting takes precedence over other classes and work to the professor
• No Clear Instructions
• Grading system is based on his mood and if your drawing looks pretty
• No realistic timeline(maybe in the real world)
• Lab is the only place to work on it which is only open 8AM-5PM and only two people have a key and only one is in our class. 
• Late late nights are spent in the lab by others who simply copy other's work who finished it first. 
• Copy cats tend to get better grades than the ones who free handed it. 

I've also been falling behind in Acting class because of drafting. It's all my scene partner can focus on right now since his grandmother has been so sick and died over the weekend so we have had absolutely no time to go over our script and practice. 

I want to cry right now My GPA is slipping so bad right now since so few of my classes are actually applicable to my major right now. 

Predicted results(With optimism)

Geology- B

Character Study- C

Drafting- C

Lighting Design- B

Adv. Costume Construction- A

Special Studies- A

With that Result I might  be able to get a 3.0 when I typically get a 3.5 which is between a B+ and A- GPA and 3.0 is a solid B which would bring my over all down. 

Predicted results(Without optimism)

Geology- C

Character Study- D

Drafting- D

Lighting Design- C

Adv. Costume Construction- A <---Already know my grade

Special Studies- A <--Already know my grade

With those results I'd have a... 2.47. I think I would start sobbing at that point... I haven't had that low of a GPA since I was in Middle School...

Quick update

It has been a while since I updated and I am sorry for that I have been crazy busy these last few weeks. I had spring break, a conference, and then had to catch up on homework. So it has been crazy.

Update on psychiatrist stuff: I called back over spring break to make an appointment with one of the higher rated psychiatrist offices. Well they were closed. I called again this week(I was in Fort Worth last week) and they said they would call me back. Three days later I haven't gotten a call... I am a bit angry about it. So I got a new list from my therapist/coach on friday and I will call them on Monday I am so tired of this spinning around. I also found out on Friday that the old office I was requesting documents from (submitted the paper work 2 months ago) didn't receive it! UGH! I'm so frustrated with this...

My therapist keeps pushing me towards meds now because there is literally only so much that I can do with coping mechanisms but my mind is always out of whack so I can't even slow down my brain enough to do them now. Things that used to work don't any more like keeping a planner. I want to try the meds to see if they help but the last time I took medication it made me feel awful and pass out. At the time I was using Concerta so I know I shouldn't take that. If anything similar or any major mood changes happen I will continue to not take medications.

Someone help me. T_T